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My October 1999 Writings

My October 1999 Writings

25 October 1999

Have you ever wondered if you'd ever have that special someone to share your innermost thoughts with? I suppose everyone has known that yearning at one point or another. It's really been difficult though...all of my friends are either a)married, b)engaged or c)practically engaged. Ok, so I'm moping this evening...I admit it and all I can say is...I can't help it. Sometimes the desire for a good friend's company/conversation is simply overwhelming.

18 October 1999

I don't feel inspired enough to create anything original tonight, but I thought I would share some verses I wrote in days past...enjoy. :)

This is just a brief and silly verse I wrote awhile back (last month actually)...I'm warning you, it's not exactly poetic. :)

Sparkling, cool, refreshing smile
Burning fires flame desire
Warmth from you makes life worthwhile
Lost in the pools of your quagmire.

    -- MMJ...feeling silly...I've always wanted to use 'quagmire' in a verse! :)

Here are a couple of verses I wrote ages back...the first from November of last year and the second from February of this year. :)

4 Nov. 1998

Imagine a space
  without time
Imagine a time
  without space
Imagine a world
Imagine an existence
  without a world
Imagine and you will find
these intricacies of the mind
have become that which is...

    -- MMJ ---

1 Feb. 1999

Dreams of days gone by
Leave me smiling as I think of you
I look up into the starry sky
Wondering if you see the same stars too

Memories fill my heart tonight
Thoughts drowning me
I see that star shining bright
I hope it watches over you tonight
    -- MMJ --

31 March 1999

Purple passions liberated me as I sighed
Lost in this garden of beauty my thoughts collide
Wandering through the tantalizing sights
Losing my heart and discovering my soul's delights
    -- MMJ --

17 October 1999

Just a Thought or Two

There are so many people that pass through our lives each and every day. Not just the people we meet, but also the people whom we simply pass in the street. Being rather fond of sitting on a cafe or bar patio and simply watching the people pass, I always wonder what is going on in other people's lives or sometimes I just wonder about what someone was thinking when he/she got dressed that morning. :)

I went to see the movie "American Beauty" last night. It was an absolutely excellent film. I haven't seen anything so well done in quite awhile. It's the kind of film that causes you to re-think your life and to make you realize how much beauty exists in this that is often overlooked because we are stuck in the daily grind. I don't generally see movies more than once, but this is one movie I have to see again. Hmmm...and now I'm sounding as though I'm advertising for this lets go off on another topic.... :)

Lately, I've been 'meeting' ...ok, maybe the better expression would be 'chatting with' several different sorts of people. I've used the internet as a means of communication and a means of meeting fascinating people for over 5 years now and I must say that I have made many wonderful friends online. :) The people I've chatted with lately have ranged in age from 14 to 50-something and most of them live abroad which makes the conversations all the more interesting. I believe a lot of people are afraid of going into chatrooms and meeting people online. There has been a lot of media hype about the crazy, perverted people out there which is very unfortunate. I'm not about to say that there are no crazy people out there because I'm sure that there are. However, when you are in a chatroom or email convo, you have control over what is discussed and if you don't like what someone is saying, you simply leave that room. I've never had any problems with that.

It's easier to have a warm-hearted, honest conversation with someone online than it may be in person. Why? Well, because if you are chatting with someone through a computer I suppose it doesn't seem quite as real. You lose your little worries about what the person on the other end may think of you because frankly, you'll probably never meet the person so it doesn't matter. It's easier for me to be myself when I chat online because I don't have to live up to anyone's expectations. I can just be me. I can do that in person too, but it often takes me awhile before I am comfortable enough with someone to just be me in person. I tend to be rather shy especially in groups. It's much easier for me to relax if I am only with one or two people. I suppose that is why it is difficult to meet anyone special. Most men don't take the time to get to know me, and in all honesty I can't blame them because it does take time. :)

Well, I hate to end this so abruptly, but I'm in the middle of a convo with someone online. :)


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