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My *little* rambling...

The Occasional Ramble: The Baffling World of My Mind Revealed!

23 May 1997

It's all over! I've completed my final term at the university and I even managed to end on a good note...2 A's and 2 B's. So, now I'm working at Sandia National Labs. I'm not sure how long I will be staying there, but for now it's a good job...even if it is only an internship.

I suppose in many ways, I am simply glad the past week is over. It was a time to say goodbye to old friends and hello to a new life out in the real world. Ok, I know by now you're sick of reading this, but it's weird! I suppose the full effect won't hit me until the summer is over and either I'm in graduate school or I'm in a permanent position as a programmer. Then again, if I'm in graduate school, I will have postponed the inevitable real world from becoming part of my life for a bit longer.

You know what? It's really difficult to ramble when I'm not sure what else to talk about except the fact that I'm supposed to be out in the "real" world now. Hmmm.... Well, that's all for now, if you're interested in knowing something in particular, drop me a line at and I will answer you as soon as I can.

09 May 1997

Only one week remains. One final week of exams and due dates before the much anticipated graduation day. It still feels weird. I am planning on applying to graduate school for computer science, however, I am also looking for a somewhat permanent position(nothing's really permanent anymore, it seems). I will continue my education unless I am able to obtain an offer which will allow me to do some travel and perhaps work in London. It would be fascinating to have the opportunity to live/work in London. Although it would be difficult to leave my family here, the experience gained by living/working in a foreign country would be priceless. Hopefully my family will see it that way if I am able to obtain such a position. Hmmm...I'm not really in much of a rambling state of mind at the moment so, that's all for now. Smile! and have a great day!

06 May 1997

Well, the semester is nearly over(just under 2 weeks left!). Things here are busy and rather's the end of semester crunch, per se. There are several reports/projects due this week which resulted in very little sleep for me over the weekend. However, it looks like all the hard work is going to pay off soon.

My thoughts lately have been a little muddled with the stress of the end of the semester. I think that in some ways, it hasn't hit me yet that I'm really going to be out of here soon. I am still searching for a job...although somewhat passively at the moment. I am also still planning on applying to graduate school. For now, I'll just have to wait and see what develops.

18 April 1997

Bittersweet. That's the only way to describe it. Yes, that's how graduation is going to be. All the hard work will pay off when I finally have that diploma in my hand and know I earned it. However, as promising a future as this may give me, it will be difficult to leave the only world I've ever known; difficult to leave behind the friendships I've treasured over the years. Don't get me wrong, I'll be glad to be finished with school (and exams and homework and projects), but I wish I didn't have to lose those I've come to know and cherish as well. I'm happy to hear when one of my friends has obtained a permanent position doing what he/she wants to do. I just can't help but think... I'm going to miss him. Bittersweet.

15 April 1997

Do you ever wonder if the end result is truly worth the intermediate chaos? Sometimes it just doesn't seem worth the trouble.

12 April 1997

I'm nearing the end of my undergraduate life here at UNM and it's weird. Life in general is often weird, but school has always been simply straightforward and well-defined. I suppose part of this feeling of weirdness comes from the fact that I'm still in awe of graduation. I have approximately a month of school left before I'll be able to officially call myself an electrical engineer and I still can't believe it's over. I've learned quite a bit about myself (and about life) during my time at UNM. I suppose one of the most important things I've learned is that I don't want to work directly as an electrical engineer. Although I like engineering, I know that circuit design/analysis is simply not for me. So, I'm applying to graduate school with the hopes of becoming a computer programmer. Most of my work experience has been in programming so I suppose it's only logical that I would have an interest in it.

Another area that I've become ever so fond of includes any sort of web development. I love the myriad of opportunities provided by the internet! Afterall, how often can one open up a newspaper or turn on a television and meet people from all over the world ...and be able to communicate with these people and/or receive comments from them regarding your personal experiences? And of course, the marketing opportunities are endless. Ok, so maybe I'm a bit attached to my connection to the internet...and perhaps I'm beginning to ramble a bit but, I am stressed. I only have about a month to complete 3 projects (not to mention the homework assignments, readings, and final exams!). I still have to fill out my application for graduate school and figure out where I'm going to be by the end of May. Should I postpone graduate school for a permanent position which will allow me to earn some $$$? (This would also allow me to gain invaluable life experience since I've spent most of my life thus far in the American educational system.) Or should I continue with school immediately and postpone the opportunity to begin the rest of my life? (I'm nearly burnt out with school already...will I survive another 3 years??? Then again, if I wait, will I still have the motivation to attend classes later???) Or should I just take a few months off and travel Europe with the excuse that I need to find myself? (Hmmm...that is very tempting, but I must be logical and besides...I can't afford that!)'s a good thing I can almost see the light at the end of what's been a very long and challenging tunnel. In a short month or so, the stress will end (at least briefly), and maybe by then my thoughts won't be so muddled. Then again, as the light at the end of the tunnel becomes brighter, I can't help but it a train?